I haven’t posted in a while so I figured I’d post this. These are dreams I’ve had of my ex and it seems they aren’t going away. The ones I’ve recorded here are the ones that I remember happening. There were other ones that I vaguely remember after waking up that I didn’t record and other ones I’m sure I simply don’t remember.

02/02/24: Under the sea. Dreamt there was some sort of new device (Apple possibly) where if you put it on the floor under a table then lay a doona over the table and lay down on it then looked under the table it would take you under the sea with blue lights and fish swimming everywhere. We both lay down on the table and were leaning over the edge like we were swimming in the water with fish and blue light was shining around us. Afterwards I told Lisa I would stay in Sydney and she said it’s ok, maybe it’ll still happen sometime. As in it’s okay I don’t have to stay, maybe it’ll still happen anyway. At the start of the dream I dreamt that I was singing “Under the Sea” to her. Woke up in tears.

14/6/24: Dreamt she came over to see me and was cooking fried eggs on the table. Asked her why she came and said that it’s ok if she missed me because I missed her too and we both started crying. She was wearing tube top which was weird but she looked nice. 

16/6/24: Dreamt that instead of going to her workplace to shower that I invited her via text to my workplace to shower instead. She agreed to it which made me happy but in the dream I had to wait. I was looking so incredibly forward at seeing her again in the dream. I didn’t get to see her in the dream because I woke up again. We used to go to her workplace a lot to shower.

9/9/24: Dreamt that I went to Cabra moon fest and saw her. Followed her for a bit. Was on a bus ride with her and she was sat at the front of the bus talking to someone, turned out to be her brother and sister who got off the bus and decided to go home. Felt I was too close to her and she didn’t want me to see her so I got off the bus behind them then heard someone saying “pickpocket! pickpocket!” and turned around and saw a girl opening my backpack. Tried to pull away from her and get her to stop but she wouldn’t so I went to swing at her and then I woke up.

30/09/24: Dreamt we were sleeping in the same room (and maybe other people were sleeping in the room on the floor?). Saw a huge rat on a tv in the dark then noticed it run into a hole in the corner of the room. Woke up Lisa who was sleeping next to me to show her the rat and told her that I’ll kill the rat for her.

03/10/24: Dreamt that we had gone to my house and it was late at night around midnight and we both needed to sleep but we hadn’t showered yet so we were trying to figure out who should shower first. She was talking about what she needed to do the next day.

10/10/24: Dreamt that I would see her because there was some sort of event on and we were in the same graduating class and so she would have to go to this event. Put my hand around Elon’s waist or something, maybe he was a lookalike. Was waiting and expecting her to show up since the class was there but then she didn’t turn up and in the dream I think I realised she decided to go to another event with her boyfriend instead.

26/10/24: Dreamt that we were broken up and I was in a WhatsApp chat with my friends who were talking about it and one of my friends suggested something that really annoyed me, woke up to find my fist clenched hard with a mark which my index finger nail made in my palm.

03/11/24: Dreamt we were lying on our backs in bed together, she was on my left side. We held hands and her hair got caught between our hands so I pulled her hand up away so that her hair slowly fell out of between our hands but some hair remained and I was surprised at how long her hair was. I said I was surprised and was wondering if she had cut her hair and she said that she kind of liked it long. 

09/11/24: Dreamt that we were talking again via text. At one point I was waiting for her to text me back and I sent a text to her right as she texted me (about something else). I think I said to her that I wanted to keep seeing her but was waiting for her to reply then I woke up.