I wanted to move back. I asked her on the phone “Can I meet you?” when she called to end our four year relationship precisely because I wanted to meet to talk about coming back. After all, at that point I had nothing keeping me from moving back anymore (i.e. a job) and I wanted to move back. I wanted to continue life together and I wanted to commit fully.

She said she didn’t think it would be a good idea and I didn’t push it. Why didn’t I just push it? Why didn’t I say “But what if the news is good?” Part of me was scared of going back and forth again, but I know it wouldn’t have happened because I realised I could move back and be happy with that decision.

If I had’ve just said the news might be good then our time together wouldn’t have gone to waste, I wouldn’t have spend the past four months doing nothing except miss her, we both wouldn’t have gone through unnecessary heartbreak and we would be getting married in the next 12 months at some point. We had a great relationship and it was thrown away for essentially nothing.

Don’t be stupid and don’t ever end a relationship over the phone, it’s just idiotic.